Next Year

Well, I discovered that I was not selected to speak at this years TEDx Evansville event. However, that is just fine because that means I am going to have an entire year now to work on a project and fine tune my application to TEDx in one year!

TEDx is heavily grounded in the application process and many wonderful presentations much first perfect their application before being accepted. I was contacted and offered assistance for next years application process.

I have set a goal to be on that stage next year and with hard work and determination, I have no doubt that goal will become realized. Never allow any setback to put you down! Just keep your eyes on your goal, work hard and continue putting one foot in front of the other and you will get there!!

How Do You Heal A Broken Heart?

For what it is worth…

Over a year ago I realized that I had fallen in love with a friend of mine. It just sort of happened on it’s own, I didn’t plan it, one day it hit me like “Wow, I didn’t see the ‘L’ word coming.” It’s easy for us to ‘like’ people in our lives but to love someone is more complicated than that.

You know, the kind of moments where you do something and wonder if that someone else would enjoy it as well. Or connecting on a crazy level because you understand what they heck they are going through. Yep, sounds odd for 2018 but it still happens people. We’re still out there!

So what do you do? You do the right thing, go for broke risk it all, risk looking foolish, risk loosing the friendship and you tell them exactly how you feel. Hey, tomorrow could be your last day and you don’t want any regrets, NONE!

I took that risk and and discovered the feeling was not mutual. Now I didn’t completely ruin the friendship but found that area where you say, “Ok, God, how do you turn this thing off?”

For a while I was embarrassed.

You see for three years I have been changing everything about me. It is on that process that is supposed to be all positive that I created something negative. For me to be happy, I developed a belief that love was a force to be avoided, that I had hurt long enough in my lifetime that the reason I felt great now was because I focused on a me that became incapable of love.

For seven days I have been overcome with the feeling I have avoided for several years now. It has been some of the hardest days of my life. That’s the thing about life, it will throw a wrench into your gears just to see if your paying attention.

Today, I realized that I have nothing to be embarrassed about. Yes, I’m in love with someone who doesn’t feel the same. Are they still my friend, YES THEY ARE!

You see, life is so short, tomorrow it could be over and who wants to die with a heart full of love? Love is a beautiful thing and if you feel it, for the love of Pete don’t hold it in! Someone may say no but enjoy the feeling of being in love, you know, that feeling when hearing their voice makes you tremble. That’s right this ‘old school’ guys is going ‘old school’ here.

The reality is, yes I am in love with a friend but I would rather love a friend then hate an enemy for the rest of my life!! Can I be a friend? Another way of asking that is “Do I want this person in my life?” Yes I do!

Someday someone is going to come along and do what I have failed to so and sweep them off their feet. But the test of any love for someone is wanting them to find love, even if it is not with you.

I’m likely in trouble once this is posted but that’s ok, because at this moment I have no regrets. Take today to live and love like there is no tomorrow, because tomorrow may never come!

The world could use more love!!

Never Easy

 

With today being Independence Day, I want to wish everyone a safe and memorable

Fourth of July! Thinking about independence I can’t help but go right to the choice we have every single day to begin our own revolutionary war withing ourselves for our own declaration of freedom from an old lifestyle, personality or habit that we no longer want to define us!

You no something, it’s hard! You bet it is! When I first began this blog back in 2008 (back when I was on Blogger) I was determined to make it a weekly blog about my trials and victories on the road to becoming a successful writer. I was super pumped and jumped right into it!

Now, ten years later, it’s hard. I find myself torn between Facebook posts, Twitter tweets, Instagram stories, YouTube videos, Medium content that I often become overwhelmed by working this all on my own. Regardless, my goal is to always share this crazy journey with you no matter what comes in front of me. Now it may not be every day or week (that must change for the week) I want you to know how much it means that you’ve been here for a decade!

There are days when I don’t feel up to writing, posting or tweeting, no one ever said it was easy, that’s why so many don’t have goals! Yet I feel that I am only a short time form the success of impacting others and have no doubt in the world that this journey is all worth the effort!

I have been gaining great reviews from those who have read my latest self-improvement/motivational book: WHEN THE STORM RUNS OUT OF RAIN and am super pumped to have this book in the hands of those who want to take their lives to the next level! I should have some of the first interior proofs in a few days and can’t wait to see what they look like!

With the success of my second 5K, I have kept with my routine of running the entire distance of my lake coarse near me and want you to know that when something is telling you that you can’t do it, your most times pretty close to making it a happen so don’t listen to that voice of negativity and go with your heart!

For now, Happy 4th and make memories!