Two weeks ago, I would not have thought that my year would be ending this way, but for all the right reasons I am filled with optimism. What a way to go out in 2011. More to come in 2012.
My apologize for the lack of post this month. 2012 is coming, and with it, a new story!
With the hardships of life, come decisions. To define the little moments instead of letting them define you. These are the little moments of this humbled author.
#1. My parents chose life.
#2. I was blessed with wonderful grandparents.
#3. I was given a younger brother.
#4. I played minor league baseball.
#5. I was a Cub Scout/Boy Scout
#6. I earn the Cub Scout Arrow of Light.
#7. I made a soapbox wheel derby car with my father.
#8. I saw the country through a semi windshield on many trips with my grandfather.
#9. I wrote 15 poems as a 7th grader.
#10. Once dreamed of being a conservationist.
#11. Once dreamed of being an actor.
#12. I’ve seen Mt. Rushmore.
#13. I’ve seen Niagara Falls.
#14. I wrote a 50 page screenplay my sophomore year.
#15. I tried out for the basketball team my senior year.
#16. I walked away from a car wreck that should have killed me.
#17. I stopped drinking at age 22 and done very little since then (ten years sober!).
#18. I helped my best friend find his soul mate.
#19. I hear my oldest sons first cry!
#20. Both of my grandfathers held my oldest son before they both passed away.
#21. I wrote my first novel at age 24.
#22. I met Joan Jett.
#23. I got to see a picture of my second child. (Your daddy will always love ya kiddo)
#24. I wrote my second novel at age 27.
#25. I heard my middle sons first cry!
#26. I wrote my third novel at age 29.
#27. I heard my youngest sons first cry!
#28. I am a baseball coach.
#29. I became a Cub Scout Den Leader.
#30. I’ve met Bryan Adams.
#31. I rebuilt my relationship with my mother!
#32. I wrote my fourth novel at age 32.
#33. I’ve written over 1,000 pages!
#34. I love my father!
#35. I am working on a picture book right now.
#36. I will begin on my sixth book in 2012.
#37. I am healthy!
#38. My three wonderful sons are healthy!!!
#39. I have a handful of very good friends.
#40. I have a job.
#41. I have a home.
We all have hardships but we also have lives filled with little moments. It is these times that we hold onto and become who we are. Good or bad, I have no regrets. To life I say, it is ok, bring it. I can take it.
I love writing, as you probably know by now. It is a passion that I strive for success in everyday. But I’ll open up about the life behind the writer, so to speak.
Things you probably did not know about L.B. Fox:
#1. I was not a planned child.
#2. My parents divorced when I was 2 years old.
#3. I lived in two different towns (as a young kid) with my mother.
#4. Lived with my dad from ages 10-14.
#5. I attended three different school districts.
#6. I talked about suicide during my 8th grade year.
#7. I ran away from home my freshman year.
#8. I lived in a two car garage with my mother and stepfather and slept on a mattress on a concrete floor.
#9. I went to school hungry.
#10. I lived with my mother again from ages 14 to 15.
#11. I lost my grandmother on my 14th birthday.
#12. I never had one girlfriend in high school.
#13. I became hooked on alcohol at age 20.
#14. I had a wreck that would have killed me, had I not been wearing my seatbelt.
#15. I’ve nearly lost all of my closest friends at this point.
#16. I dropped out of military basic training.
#17. I lost a job I absolutely loved.
#18. I then lost my home.
#19. I lost my mustang.
#20. I lost my perfect credit that took five years to earn the hard way.
#21. I lost both of my grandfathers at the same time period, one at Christmas, one at New Years
#22. I lost my second child.
#23. I watched my relationship with my mother crumble.
#24. I missed my youngest brothers early years.
#25. I watched my relationship with my father weaken.
#26. My children’s book series has been rejected by 47 agents.
#27. I filed for bankruptcy.
#28. I’ve been cheated on.
#29. I’ve been lied to.
#30. I’ve lived in my car.
#31. I’ve been divorced.
Our lives all have different hardships. To each one of us they are unique. They make us or break us into the people we are or will become. My life is one that I never take for granted! I can AND will make my dreams come true! You can’t let things or people kick you down. If you do then you can be held down permanently if you let it. I choose the path less traveled. I like being a tad bit different, it means I am not cutting myself from the same cloth as so many others. It is because of these things above that I have become who I have become. (Read my next post!)
Song: Head Above Water
Artist: Theory of a Deadman
“Tryin’ to keep your head above water has never been harder,even when it feels hopeless, You’re gonna get through this, Head Above Water, gotta fight from going under, even when it feels useless to wish….you can get through this!”
As Christmas draws near, I am reminded daily that it will be my first holiday season single since 2001. I must say I am alright with that thinks in part to three amazing sons and some friends that have been great to me over 2011. As I sit at my computer I wonder a lot about my future and just who will be in it. If 2011 has taught me anything, it is that I can take the hits, I have too. I think we all have to in our own ways? I would be lying if I said I didn’t miss having a woman in my life, good or bad, we men need that social connection from the opposite sex. This time around, I find myself being particularly selective, not because there is simply no one knocking at my door where I live, but rather because I really have been a selective type of guy. I refuse to settle for someone simply because I am getting a slight bit lonely around the holidays. Since my separation early this year, I did ask two women out, and in both occasions I was met with less than mature responses to which I crack a smile and simply say “On and up”. I want mature, I want funny, I want responsible, I want sweet to look at, I want goal oriented, I want faithful, I want open and honest,I want a friend, a mom and (down the road) a wife.
I can say that I learned more this year than I have in any years past. I learned just how resilient I was. I learned that I could live out of my car, I learned that I could finish my fourth novel. I learned I have a handful of great friends. I walk into 2012 with three amazing sons. Three young boys who fill me with hope and a fresh outlook. It is because of my sons that I can not and will not settle for the first thing to come along. They deserve better and so do I.
I am getting so tired, so it is time to hit the sack. But I will say, I will find that certain someone out there, I will sell my stories and they will be hits, my sons will be happy and so will I. And to that almighty thing we all call ‘Life’ I say, “I will wipe my blood away and live to fight another day…”
I apologize for lack of posts but since finishing Bk4 I have struggled to keep things going with the books, I am stuck in a rut so to speak. I will be starting on a new story next year, I hope I can blog somthing interesting before that though.