A vacation is supposed to be a time for relaxation and enjoyment. You know, do the things you want to do? Yet with Thursday almost gone and only three days left, I have found little relaxation but four days with thoughts about my writing and how every road seems to be hindered. I have recently thought about taking Marky, Slash & Levy to independent publishing house in hopes of garnering some attention. After eight hours of searching, writing and making calls I feel like a wounded warrior standing alone on a battlefield. Out of breathe, exhausted, morally beaten to a pulp and emotionally distraught, I am scrounging to bring my three created friends to the attention of anyone.
Then I remember when I first started writing and how all I wanted to do was write. Little could I have known what would lay ahead in the next eight years but writing is what I have done my very best to do! I have never wanted to make millions, I’m not sure if I could ever deal with that much, I just want to do for my sons when they need things from me. I have always wanted to be poor doing something I love than be rich doing something I hate (or in my case, being poor doing something I tolerate).
Should I just let Publish America have Bks 3&4 and be happy to at the very least, have published works even if they are not from a well-respected publishing house? Should I keep slowly trying to muddle through hoping an agent that I have not already written to will like the series?
Marky, Slash & Levy are great characters and great friends! I have given eight years to creating their world and their struggle. I am proud to write, some only dream of doing what I have done and that makes me humble, simply being allowed to do just that. If I do let Publish America have Bks 3&4, then what? I know I will continue writing, I will also start on a picture book I have been thinking of for some time. Then there is the thought of writing a story about a young man and his struggle to follow his dreams to the very end.
True to my three characters, I want to make the right decision, but which one is it?