Author Louise Jackson once told me “Levi you got to blog and do it everyday, even if you don’t have much to blog about.” Well it’s been what three four months since I wrote?? That’s not what you’d call everyday.
Now before I go any further, I gotta say that though this may sound, at times boo hooish, I am feeling really good and just sharing a writer’s thoughts, okay?
Actually, I’ve felt a bit like my world has had clear glass box placed around it for some time now. I’ve gained alot of weight I am sad to say, went on a diet and lost it, only to gain it back again. With the new year though My wife Jennifer and I are going to go on it together and I hope to keep off the weight and feel great when I look in the mirror.
Anyone who ever said raising children is easy surly never had children. With three wonderful boys clinging to me for my attention it is so easy to get overwhelmed and stressed out. See, When our youngest, Rylen was born, I had just finished Marky, Slash & Levy Vs. The Doomsday Device, (Book 3 in the Marky, Slash and Levy series). Since then I have only written enough for my schooling at the Children’s Institute of Literature and nothing more. With children coming first it often puts many things on the back burner and for me that has been writing.
To me, writing isn’t all about punctuation, proper grammar or editing, it’s about opening up your mind and letting creativity flow onto the page and creating what you are think of. When I sit down at my desk, I am open minded and running ideas like a projector in my head. Lately, when the boys are all asleep, I can hardly stay awake to make it to bed, let alone write a few pages before hand. I have tried to force things when I am tired and then the next day, I read what I had written just the night before and think “My God what was I thinking,LOL). So for the last four months I have just tried making it through the day.
I work at a Lumber Store, have I ever mentioned that? I spend my day getting up at six o’clock in the morning. I lay in my bed for 20 minutes just trying to wake up before I make my way to the closet for my clothes. I then stumble to the kitchen for a Pop Tart. Isn’t it funny how you never get tired of Pop Tarts?? I then sit down at my desk and check my usual things (Myspace, Facebook, E-mail) thinking maybe and agent or editor or publisist might have found one of my site through the night and was compelled to write me. Needless to say that routinely takes about five minutes to do before it is time to go to work. I often think then about how I would much rather be getting up and making a warm mug of hot tea with sugar and setting down to doodle a few things out while I am waking up. Reality check though, “Get in the car, Go to work”, I think and drive the five blocks up the street to my work.
As I pull up their is always a customer there who thinks OPEN @ 7a.m. really means OPEN @ 6:50a.m. Not being that much of a morning person, I have found myself, before I even get my coat off, helping someone completely redo the plumbing for some rental house or making keys which is always a hoot when you are not yet awake.
I spend my day thinking about two things, my family and my writing. Sometimes I walk around in the warehouse thinking about who can I write to or e-mail? You know that feeling?? Now don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my job, I work with very nice people and help out very nice people, it’s just, since I was a little boy, I have always felt like I was suppose to be my own person and not work to make someone else’s dream better.
I have never written anything looking to become THE NEXT BIG THING, simply to support my family doing something I love to do, not just because it pays the bills most the time. I often see myself taking my boys to school and returning home to write a chapter or tweek work from the day before and working to arrange signings here or there, or maybe spending some time with Jennifer, which is not what I do much lately.
My friend, J, who is a comic book illustrator, has a saying, that he often likes to say, “Anything you start you had better be ready for a sentence of 2 to 10.” He means years to reach your dreams. I believe him. I have been writing on MARKY, SLASH & LEVY for six years now and have yet to find that right Literary Agent who opens doors for my series to come alive. 2 to 10, yep it’s true. So to any good literary agent out there, my door is always open.
Ok, now I am trying to hold my head up so I will continued tomorrow, I wonder is anyone reading this? Sure you are, I hope.